Before the fall

It's heavy for my first blog ever...I know. But before I flaunt my new lighter side I'd like to discuss where I'm coming from.

Eight weeks ago I could never have started a sentence with a conjunction and could never ever have ended with a preposition. Sometime during October I changed. At this point I won't say what the catalyst was or try to delve into the intricacies of this -pardon the cliche- metamorphosis...because the truth is that it doesn't matter one bit. I could spend a few years analyzing the minor complexities of the past few weeks, which is what I would have done before the fall, or I can accept them.

My first 29 years were spent in varying degrees of disregard for all things... opportunities, blessings, people, fun, freedom, possibility and most of all for my life. Granted there were circumstances that clouded my view but I spent all my time in fear. During the past eight weeks that fear started to subside and I feel like I'm alive for the first time - another cliche, I know - all kinds of truths are lost to overused expressions.

So now the idea is to find out how to live without fear, to recognize it and abandon it completely, to discover a way to live in this moment, love this life and find presence.